Good thoughts and actions can never produce bad results; bad thoughts and actions can never produce good results. This is what James Allen says in his book As a Man Thinketh.
I thought on this -- Then why does it happen that some honest people always fail and dishonest people always win!!!
He also had an answer for this; he opines that a dishonest man may have some admirable virtues which the other honest man doesn't, and likewise an honest man may have some obnoxious vices which bring failure to it. I accept the answer, PARTIALLY!!!
Why Partially? This cannot be true with all the beings. The reason is -- One of my first cousin (who passed away last year) and his daughters story.
He got married the previous year and the couple was expecting a baby the next year. But fate was ruthless! He suffered with some incurable illness and passed away, when his wife was expecting the delivery the next fortnight. He could not see the baby, he could not love his child. OK, for a time we'll think of what Mr. Allen says i.e. may be he did not do good deeds, so his life end so early and this way. But what about the baby, which was brought to this world a fortnight, after its father was on a journey, which would never bring him back! She never had a father, who would love, care, play, teach her.
What was the baby left with - a mother, who is not enough educated to go out work and feed her baby, or despaired grandparents or the innumerable questions it will have to answer as time passes
When the baby has no deeds done, but will still face difficulties, what brought it bad fate!!! So its not only THE MAN, which has the ultimate power or power to do miracles, but its also the situation, the environment HE grows in.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Understanding 'ME'
I have not been regular in posting and so i am sorry to the COMMITMENT i have made. Will try to be regular as far as blogging is concerned. :P
Last week was all full of tasks to be done at home. Reason NAVRATRI and DUSSEHRA. The festivals which the whole country celebrates in their own unique culture. But the feelings of devotion, love, victory remain the same. You know, you can have one hundred thousand reasons to love this land!!!
I have been thinking to post on some or the other topic, but every time i postpone it and then i forget it. This has been happening with me since my last post. I read some status on Facebook. I think a lot on it, then i feel this would be my topic to post, then i suddenly forget it....then think on some interesting talk among friends or very interestings group of maids :P (They continue to amuse me with the topics they talk on -- from their house issues to market rates to mehngai (inflation), to festivals, to shopping, to schools and so on.......). Again i forget this too!!!
How stupid of me!!! :(
I have been spending time with my pet parrot, who now perfectly calls out my name, calls out when she is very happy or when she wants to eat something. She, calling only my name, has made me feel proud and special :P (All others have tried making her learn their names and failed) :D
On the other front, festival of lights Diwali, is not making me feel great, coz i have exams 2 days before Diwali and exactly 2 days after it. (Hats off the academic cell of my college, who is saying whatever the way may be, we need to see you frustrated).
And on book front, read, ADIGA's WHITE TIGER, which was very worth of Booker Prize. I apologize to all the great book lovers about me reading the book, after years, but spare a mortal like me, who is still an embryonic reader.
Hoping to remember the topic for next post. ( and writing on the same) :P :D
Last week was all full of tasks to be done at home. Reason NAVRATRI and DUSSEHRA. The festivals which the whole country celebrates in their own unique culture. But the feelings of devotion, love, victory remain the same. You know, you can have one hundred thousand reasons to love this land!!!
I have been thinking to post on some or the other topic, but every time i postpone it and then i forget it. This has been happening with me since my last post. I read some status on Facebook. I think a lot on it, then i feel this would be my topic to post, then i suddenly forget it....then think on some interesting talk among friends or very interestings group of maids :P (They continue to amuse me with the topics they talk on -- from their house issues to market rates to mehngai (inflation), to festivals, to shopping, to schools and so on.......). Again i forget this too!!!
How stupid of me!!! :(
I have been spending time with my pet parrot, who now perfectly calls out my name, calls out when she is very happy or when she wants to eat something. She, calling only my name, has made me feel proud and special :P (All others have tried making her learn their names and failed) :D
On the other front, festival of lights Diwali, is not making me feel great, coz i have exams 2 days before Diwali and exactly 2 days after it. (Hats off the academic cell of my college, who is saying whatever the way may be, we need to see you frustrated).
And on book front, read, ADIGA's WHITE TIGER, which was very worth of Booker Prize. I apologize to all the great book lovers about me reading the book, after years, but spare a mortal like me, who is still an embryonic reader.
Hoping to remember the topic for next post. ( and writing on the same) :P :D
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Be away!!!
I'm not being rude to anyone, but this post will act as my anger-absorber today.
I was scheduled to attend an interview for an MNC today. But i was not sure to attend the interview neither was i sure to take the job (If i get one).
I will just write something more about my life since past one and half years. I have not performed upto the mark. There were two reasons for this:
One being physically not well, continuously suffering from one or the other ailment. Second being my mother's illness i.e. Alzeimers' and me being the only caretaker as of now, has brought in a hurricane in my life.
These reasons have been disturbing my daily routine, my career, my personal growth and every little thing i have been aspiring for in life.
The reason i have blabbered so much is, one my SO CALLED friend, teased me if i will be able to perform in the interview (taking into consideration my performance since a year). This hurt me so much, so so much. Because he knew all the reasons of my under performance in these past months and he also knew, how i have been through-out my career till now.
Why do people have prejudice in mind? How can someone jump to conclusions without understanding the situations ? Why do such people call themselves friends? (Only for friendship day party)
So the lesson i learned from this incident was, BE AWAY, from such people who fake of being friends, don't ever share your problems with anyone because the possibility that they would make fun out of it, is more, and the most important is trust yourself.
I was scheduled to attend an interview for an MNC today. But i was not sure to attend the interview neither was i sure to take the job (If i get one).
I will just write something more about my life since past one and half years. I have not performed upto the mark. There were two reasons for this:
One being physically not well, continuously suffering from one or the other ailment. Second being my mother's illness i.e. Alzeimers' and me being the only caretaker as of now, has brought in a hurricane in my life.
These reasons have been disturbing my daily routine, my career, my personal growth and every little thing i have been aspiring for in life.
The reason i have blabbered so much is, one my SO CALLED friend, teased me if i will be able to perform in the interview (taking into consideration my performance since a year). This hurt me so much, so so much. Because he knew all the reasons of my under performance in these past months and he also knew, how i have been through-out my career till now.
Why do people have prejudice in mind? How can someone jump to conclusions without understanding the situations ? Why do such people call themselves friends? (Only for friendship day party)
So the lesson i learned from this incident was, BE AWAY, from such people who fake of being friends, don't ever share your problems with anyone because the possibility that they would make fun out of it, is more, and the most important is trust yourself.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
The divided ME!!!
After a week break, i am neither feeling relaxed nor refreshed. But feeling more fatigued, low, and confused. :(
At crossroads, when you are filled with a 'combo pack' of emotions, you want some avenue to let it out, so do i, and this is the way am doing it!!!
These days, life is full of mental pressure, thoughts which are making me feel alone, sad, uncomfortable...as if i am running out of energy, enthusiasm, that something which motivates me to wake up in the morning and live life, not necessarily 'as prescribed', but my own way....right or wrong!!!
Why this to me? (I know I'm not the only one...hah!!!...I'm being so sympathetic towards myself) This point of time is the most important phase of my life, be it, career, personal life, mothers illness, my own intellectual growth, anything!!! But i'm not able to justify it to any ONE thing!!! I'm so divided between all the things...so scattered...Imagine i am running many marathons all at a time, and trying to finish all of them!!! Poor my heart!!! :( Does it understand, i can't! Even if i try to run it, and finish, i would win neither of them. It would simply mean, i'm running for the sake of doing it.
But its so difficult to choose one marathon. All are important. All make me 'complete'. My participation in all is important. One cannot be sacrificed at the cost of other. The feeling of sacrifice is the cause of mental pressure. Only the 'infinite power' and destiny (i believe), will make out the path.
This takes me back to title of blog. How could i keep aside the HUE of SACRIFICE, when i'm talking of hues of life!!!
At crossroads, when you are filled with a 'combo pack' of emotions, you want some avenue to let it out, so do i, and this is the way am doing it!!!
These days, life is full of mental pressure, thoughts which are making me feel alone, sad, uncomfortable...as if i am running out of energy, enthusiasm, that something which motivates me to wake up in the morning and live life, not necessarily 'as prescribed', but my own way....right or wrong!!!
Why this to me? (I know I'm not the only one...hah!!!...I'm being so sympathetic towards myself) This point of time is the most important phase of my life, be it, career, personal life, mothers illness, my own intellectual growth, anything!!! But i'm not able to justify it to any ONE thing!!! I'm so divided between all the things...so scattered...Imagine i am running many marathons all at a time, and trying to finish all of them!!! Poor my heart!!! :( Does it understand, i can't! Even if i try to run it, and finish, i would win neither of them. It would simply mean, i'm running for the sake of doing it.
But its so difficult to choose one marathon. All are important. All make me 'complete'. My participation in all is important. One cannot be sacrificed at the cost of other. The feeling of sacrifice is the cause of mental pressure. Only the 'infinite power' and destiny (i believe), will make out the path.
This takes me back to title of blog. How could i keep aside the HUE of SACRIFICE, when i'm talking of hues of life!!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Ruminations!!!
I read a 'wall post' today saying, past is history, future is mystery, so live in present.( A very commonly said/written thought)
But i stopped there, and thought over it, pondered, is it?
You know sometimes it happens that you think, i wish i could have done it. I wish it never happened. I wish, this and that....and feel sad about it. (Its alright to feel sad, you not committing a sin).Even i feel same about many things, which i should have done/not done, many people with whom i should have talked to or never talked to, so on and so forth.....
But how would i know today, that todays decision would be a blunder for tomorrow. Everybody does it holding an arrow of hope, but the string of the bow gives up...and THUDDD...we land up in a wrong place, wrong people, wrong situation. If i would have known then, that whether its right or wrong, i would have not been writing this post probably.
Sometimes i feel, i just need something where i can tell everything in 'me', express anger,pour out all frustration, regret, cry, laugh....simply anything - a book, a coffee mug, a tree, a bench in a garden., any damn thing in this would which would just listen to me....and make 'me' empty.
Why not some Homo Sapiens Sapiens ??? Because they won't understand. Some will be indifferent, some will ignore, and most of the 'species' will be happy, when they see, i am not happy.
I have titled this post 'RUMINATIONS', because these thoughts keep coming in my mind, then i keep them aside for a while, then again they make me feel their existence, in fact they hint me, i am still alive!!!
But i stopped there, and thought over it, pondered, is it?
You know sometimes it happens that you think, i wish i could have done it. I wish it never happened. I wish, this and that....and feel sad about it. (Its alright to feel sad, you not committing a sin).Even i feel same about many things, which i should have done/not done, many people with whom i should have talked to or never talked to, so on and so forth.....
But how would i know today, that todays decision would be a blunder for tomorrow. Everybody does it holding an arrow of hope, but the string of the bow gives up...and THUDDD...we land up in a wrong place, wrong people, wrong situation. If i would have known then, that whether its right or wrong, i would have not been writing this post probably.
Sometimes i feel, i just need something where i can tell everything in 'me', express anger,pour out all frustration, regret, cry, laugh....simply anything - a book, a coffee mug, a tree, a bench in a garden., any damn thing in this would which would just listen to me....and make 'me' empty.
Why not some Homo Sapiens Sapiens ??? Because they won't understand. Some will be indifferent, some will ignore, and most of the 'species' will be happy, when they see, i am not happy.
I have titled this post 'RUMINATIONS', because these thoughts keep coming in my mind, then i keep them aside for a while, then again they make me feel their existence, in fact they hint me, i am still alive!!!
Amma, Ayodhya and the lesson!!!
What magic can media create!!! What amazing effect can word-of-mouth create! Hold on...i ain't speaking about any new fairness cream or anti-aging cream!!!
I am talking about the hot issues these days, the CWG games and AYODHYA-BABRI verdict. CWG is almost on the track, after the media is 'praising' the full-on preparations and optimism about great games to be witnessed.(Now KALMADI and team would be getting a better sleep ;-)). And AYODHYA-BABRI is ofcourse hot all time...(Made more hot ahead of elections).
24th September was the D-day for the RAM & RAHIM. All the nation was heated up. The state-government of all the states, police forces, rapid action force, and other forces were ready to 'face it'. Even we were doing our warm-up. Its not about being pessimistic, about the verdict and forming a prejudice that there might be some mishap after the verdict, but its something we have experienced during the last decade. So we discussed that we would buy all the essential items like milk, vegetables etc. in large quantities and store them.(The second fear was high soaring prices)
And why only we, our maid, who is called 'AMMA'('अम्मा'), aged above 80 also knew that there was something about RAM and ALLAH. She said, "दीदी, कल कुछ दंगे होने वाले है क्या?" (Will there be riots tomorrow?). I said, (sounding optimistic), " की अम्मा कुछ नहीं होगा, आप चिंता मत करो".(Nothing will happen, don't worry)
Another maid, said rebelliously "दीदी मैं तो नहीं आउंगी, कुछ हो गया तो".(I will not come, if something happens!). I tried to make her understand (She understood my ulterior motive, that i wanted her to come and do the work) and sounding more rebellious she said that the area where she lives is sensitive. I was defeated. A management student could not negotiate.( I will ask her for classes on negotiation)
The point i want to make is, media and word-of-mouth. The people who never went to school, do not know how to read and write, know whats happening around, and most important retain it! Isn't this something the marketers can leverage on? Think about it!!!
I am talking about the hot issues these days, the CWG games and AYODHYA-BABRI verdict. CWG is almost on the track, after the media is 'praising' the full-on preparations and optimism about great games to be witnessed.(Now KALMADI and team would be getting a better sleep ;-)). And AYODHYA-BABRI is ofcourse hot all time...(Made more hot ahead of elections).
24th September was the D-day for the RAM & RAHIM. All the nation was heated up. The state-government of all the states, police forces, rapid action force, and other forces were ready to 'face it'. Even we were doing our warm-up. Its not about being pessimistic, about the verdict and forming a prejudice that there might be some mishap after the verdict, but its something we have experienced during the last decade. So we discussed that we would buy all the essential items like milk, vegetables etc. in large quantities and store them.(The second fear was high soaring prices)
And why only we, our maid, who is called 'AMMA'('अम्मा'), aged above 80 also knew that there was something about RAM and ALLAH. She said, "दीदी, कल कुछ दंगे होने वाले है क्या?" (Will there be riots tomorrow?). I said, (sounding optimistic), " की अम्मा कुछ नहीं होगा, आप चिंता मत करो".(Nothing will happen, don't worry)
Another maid, said rebelliously "दीदी मैं तो नहीं आउंगी, कुछ हो गया तो".(I will not come, if something happens!). I tried to make her understand (She understood my ulterior motive, that i wanted her to come and do the work) and sounding more rebellious she said that the area where she lives is sensitive. I was defeated. A management student could not negotiate.( I will ask her for classes on negotiation)
The point i want to make is, media and word-of-mouth. The people who never went to school, do not know how to read and write, know whats happening around, and most important retain it! Isn't this something the marketers can leverage on? Think about it!!!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Weird!!!
I went. I saw. But i did not conquer... (Apology to Caesar, for the changes).
Read on...to get it....
I was happy when one of my friend told me that, there was a national book fair in the city. I had decided, come what may i would visit the fair and pick some good reads. And so i did go... but did not complete my own commitment :-(
Do i need to mention a national book fair would mean books showcased from all the genres, you and i could think!!
I did pick some books, which were in my wish list. But what i did was i didn't actually buy them. I kept them back in the shelf at the stall. I was wondering, why was i not feeling to buy and rejoice when i was so closed to them, and dying to have them.
Lately, i have been buying books at online shopping site, which has descent service, quick delivery and great discounts.I had never tried it before few months. I feel good to browse through various categories, being struck by a title, reading reviews for it, putting in the cart (read: clicking and selecting), and then paying online, then waiting for the book and getting the book at doorstep within the shortest possible time. This makes me feel like "i am blessed". For some it may sound foolish!!! But i don't care....
So may be today when i had a chance to have the 'touch effect', 'go through effect', i didn't feel 'that' blessed.
So at last i just picked one book, TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD by HARPER LEE and found the way to exit.
P.S.: I ended up paying 30 bucks more than what i would have paid online.
Read on...to get it....
I was happy when one of my friend told me that, there was a national book fair in the city. I had decided, come what may i would visit the fair and pick some good reads. And so i did go... but did not complete my own commitment :-(
Do i need to mention a national book fair would mean books showcased from all the genres, you and i could think!!
I did pick some books, which were in my wish list. But what i did was i didn't actually buy them. I kept them back in the shelf at the stall. I was wondering, why was i not feeling to buy and rejoice when i was so closed to them, and dying to have them.
Lately, i have been buying books at online shopping site, which has descent service, quick delivery and great discounts.I had never tried it before few months. I feel good to browse through various categories, being struck by a title, reading reviews for it, putting in the cart (read: clicking and selecting), and then paying online, then waiting for the book and getting the book at doorstep within the shortest possible time. This makes me feel like "i am blessed". For some it may sound foolish!!! But i don't care....
So may be today when i had a chance to have the 'touch effect', 'go through effect', i didn't feel 'that' blessed.
So at last i just picked one book, TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD by HARPER LEE and found the way to exit.
P.S.: I ended up paying 30 bucks more than what i would have paid online.
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