Ruminations!!!

I read a 'wall post' today saying, past is history, future is mystery, so live in present.( A very commonly said/written thought)

But i stopped there, and thought over it, pondered, is it?

You know sometimes it happens that you think, i wish i could have done it. I wish it never happened. I wish, this and that....and feel sad about it. (Its alright to feel sad, you not committing a sin).Even i feel same about many things, which i should have done/not done, many people with whom i should have talked to or never talked to, so on and so forth.....

But how would i know today, that todays decision would be a blunder for tomorrow. Everybody does it holding an arrow of hope, but the string of the bow gives up...and THUDDD...we land up in a wrong place, wrong people, wrong situation. If i would have known then, that whether its right or wrong, i would have not been writing this post probably.

Sometimes i feel, i just need something where i can tell everything in 'me', express anger,pour out all frustration, regret, cry, laugh....simply anything - a book, a coffee mug, a tree, a bench in a garden., any damn thing in this would which would just listen to me....and make 'me' empty.

Why not some  Homo Sapiens Sapiens ??? Because they won't understand. Some will be indifferent, some will ignore, and most of the 'species' will be happy, when they see, i am not happy.

I have titled this post 'RUMINATIONS', because these thoughts keep coming in my mind, then i keep them aside for a while, then again they make me feel their existence, in fact they hint me, i am still alive!!!