The divided ME!!!

After a week break, i am neither feeling relaxed nor refreshed. But feeling more fatigued, low, and confused. :(

At crossroads, when you are filled with a 'combo pack' of emotions, you want some avenue to let it out, so do i, and this is the way am doing it!!! 

These days, life is full of mental pressure, thoughts which are making me feel  alone, sad, uncomfortable...as if i am running out of energy, enthusiasm, that something which motivates me to wake up in the morning and live life, not necessarily 'as prescribed', but my own way....right or wrong!!!

Why this to me? (I know I'm not the only one...hah!!!...I'm being so sympathetic towards myself) This point of time is the most important phase of my life, be it, career, personal life, mothers illness, my own intellectual growth, anything!!! But i'm not able to justify it to any ONE thing!!! I'm so divided between all the things...so scattered...Imagine i am running many marathons all at a time, and trying to finish all of them!!! Poor my heart!!! :(  Does it understand, i can't! Even if i try to run it, and finish, i would win neither of them. It would simply mean, i'm running for the sake of doing it.

But its so difficult to choose one marathon. All are important. All make me 'complete'. My participation in all is important. One cannot be sacrificed at the cost of other. The feeling of sacrifice is the cause of mental pressure. Only the 'infinite power' and destiny (i believe), will make out the path.

This takes me back to title of blog. How could i keep aside the HUE of SACRIFICE, when i'm talking of hues of life!!!